I want to cry, I hate my life. I feel like Im not human. I suddenly realize I could be dead in less than a month. I hate not understanding what’s going on with my body,I mean wtf! My life depends on medicines, those f***ing white pills that I have to take every day. Im a f***ing prisoner! I may be alive, but Im not free. I cant tell anyone how I feel and I just really need to. I guess I will never be free.